Our Story: The almost Ng (Part 2)
We were a week away from receiving our foster care license when the phone rang. I was on a work retreat (in Disney World of all places) when Ben called me. There was a little girl needing a home - just a couple months old who needed a foster home. It was looking like a long term placement, so the agency wanted to find a family who was open to adopt.
We were a great fit. Two healthy, young adults ready to provide a safe, loving home for a baby. They asked us if we would be willing to accept placement of this precious little girl - in less than a week - when we got licensed the following Wednesday. We were elated. I don't think anyone in the world has ever wanted to leave Disney World, but I changed history. I desperately wanted to go home to prepare for her arrival, but stayed for the rest of my conference. But don't worry, I bought the most adorable baby outfit at the overpriced Disney hotel and was on my way home in no time.
Monday morning, we got a devastating call. This girl - one who we thought may be our daughter wasn't coming. There was some missing information in her case which was brought to light at the court appearance and they no longer thought we were the best placement since they needed a short term solution.
The flood of emotions were real, but we understood there was no guarantee that we would ever get to adopt out of foster care and knew that this was probably just the beginning of the heartbreak. We hadn't even had the privilege of holding her in our arms, but we loved her. After too many negative pregnancy tests, we wanted to be able to show love to a child - even just for a while. Before we could even look into her eyes or tell her how much we cared, she was already gone.
We were a great fit. Two healthy, young adults ready to provide a safe, loving home for a baby. They asked us if we would be willing to accept placement of this precious little girl - in less than a week - when we got licensed the following Wednesday. We were elated. I don't think anyone in the world has ever wanted to leave Disney World, but I changed history. I desperately wanted to go home to prepare for her arrival, but stayed for the rest of my conference. But don't worry, I bought the most adorable baby outfit at the overpriced Disney hotel and was on my way home in no time.
Monday morning, we got a devastating call. This girl - one who we thought may be our daughter wasn't coming. There was some missing information in her case which was brought to light at the court appearance and they no longer thought we were the best placement since they needed a short term solution.
The flood of emotions were real, but we understood there was no guarantee that we would ever get to adopt out of foster care and knew that this was probably just the beginning of the heartbreak. We hadn't even had the privilege of holding her in our arms, but we loved her. After too many negative pregnancy tests, we wanted to be able to show love to a child - even just for a while. Before we could even look into her eyes or tell her how much we cared, she was already gone.
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