I am NOT enough

I was scrolling through facebook this morning and was taken a back by this little video a foster mom shared in a local fb group I'm in. While I understood the premise, understood why it may be comforting to the stay at home parent, I didn't agree with the message.

The main point of the video was that we as moms - no matter how much we want to hide in a bathroom & cry, no matter how we fail - even if its by messing up dinner or yelling at our kids - our kids know we are strong and that makes us enough for our kids.

B.S. (Bull. Shit. For those who can handle it.) That is a load. Since when did we as moms decide it is ok to think we are enough for our kids?

Maybe I'm alone here, but I think the best thing about what I believe as a mom is that I am NOT enough for my kids. I NEED JESUS.  I NEED SUPPORT. I NEED A BREAK. I NEED HELP. I NEED MY HUSBAND, BABYSITTER AND A TEAM OF THERAPISTS. I AM NOT ENOUGH.

Reading this awesome book - Spiritual Parenting by Michelle Anthony - opened my eyes to the fact that I am not enough and I don't need anyone to tell me that I should be. I expect myself (and I feel the pressure from the world) to be this perfect mom - being their calm, collected, happy, patient, holy, self sustainable super mom that can not only keep my kids happy, clean, educated and alive, but also sustain a designer home, gourmet organic meals and awesome figure. I'm exhausted just writing that list of expectations: THIS IS NOT REAL LIFE. These things are not who God has called me to be - and probably not you either. (*DISCLAIMER: I do not speak for God - I just repeat what I hear Him saying to me.*)

We were chosen by God long before we were perfect, capable or holy. We are asked to seek Him and lead our kids to seek Him. Please don't try to be enough. Allow God to be enough for them and for yourself. I want you to join me in being ok with being enough so I stop believing the lies that I need to do it all. Do you agree? Tell me why or why not - I'd love to hear your thoughts.